Friday, July 31, 2009
I have made many, many....some I take full credit for, many I share with mom and pop. Yesterday I had a conversation with someone and I was forced to own up to some of the worst things, something I would rather not do...I dont believe in going backwards when I have made such great efforts to forge ahead. But one cannot escape one's past deeds, like a having a really bad haircut on picture taking day. Just so many things I have regrets for; I wish I could articulate my feeling better to some of the folks I know here who like to drink/do drugs....just want to share with them the destructive effects of the party. It would be something I would like to do, help people avoid the kind of things I went through, just to get that nice secure feeling. Unwinding, as I justified it in my head. I know of others who just hang on killing themselves slowly, drinking away their lives. I hope and pray it will not be my fate, I love my wife, my life and my sanity. I hope you all love yourselves and your family enough to know when to stop before its too late. PEACE
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Thursday, July 2, 2009
I deleted this blog a while back, for no real good reason other than my own paranoid ways....I think. So, today is the 2nd of July, anothe beautiful hot humid day, perhaps tomorrow I will go to the swimmbad and work on my tan....nice, I dont get to the pool as much as I would like to, of course my wife does not like to go much, she thinks she is "fat". No matter what I tell her, she has her mind made up...hating that. What do you do in the case like that? I try and tell her she is not (she just needs to re-arrange what she has, at best-but I dont dare say that), but see, its not something that would stop me from doing what I like to do. I mean, we are at an age where that sort of thing doesnt matter anymore, anyway...at least not to me. I look like crap, but then again I alwasy did. Not real fat, not real thin, just medium, and once you are in the water, its like who cares? But, women are a different species. Well, I will keep trying, I hate to go alone, but I might just have to...have a good 4th ALL!!!