End of a decade....

Well, we managed to live another 10 years. I think back about the 10 years, a decade that seemed to fly by so fast, what a different person I am today...better in some ways, older and less able to run and do things like I used to. But I feel really great about who I am, my marrige and where we are going. I worry about the state of the world, state of traveling, how can we stop the nuts without just declaring an all out war and just kill them all. Is it bad to have these thoughts? I dont think so. A religion that doesnt police itself deserves to be wiped off the earth. Period. The holocaust will be nothing compared to this. These people are a threat to life on earth. Time to declare war and mean it. Thats just my crazy side comming out. Happy New Year!!!

Its Christmas Time in the Shitty.........

One of those lines from the song we sang in church...I wonder if they noticed we were singing wrong...if they did, they didnt say so. Well, things could be better, but we count our blessings none the less. So here are what I am thankful for this Christmas season:

God. Enough said. If you know, if you dont you should try it...I wont preach, lest God srike me down for the irony of it all.

My wife. With out her in my life I might be dead by now, either physically or emotionaly, spiritually, mentally. A zombie waiting to be shot and put out of my misery. I wish I could make her half as happy as she makes me.

My friends. Not a whole lot of them, but the ones I do have are not too bad.

Dexter, our dog. Getting old, but still a good dog and a happy guy. He makes people smile, a noisey, wired-haired dachshund, we dress him up with a red collar that has jingle bells. Has a funny bouce to his step.

My job, though it could be much much better. I pray for the evil bosses who are obviously very unhappy and sexually frustrated. May the new year do you better.

My blogger friends. I dont write as much as I used to or should, but I do read your stuff and take wisdom from your writings. Peace and joy to you all.

Merry Christmas!!!

Poland

Its off to Poland once again this weekend, to deliver some good just in time for the Christmas holidays, this time we are dropping off bags of goodies that are going to be taken to hospitals for folks who are stuck in there sick over the Christmas season, folks who either have no family, or are just lonely. Plus, clothes and things from folks in Pa. and here...should be a good, but short trip. I will be picking up some gifts for the kids here, at work too, so I will be bringing stuff back as well. I hope for good weather with few or no staus. Everyone have a good weekend.

Why?

Why do people hate? Why do people who call themselves believers of God, Jesus, Allah, a cow, my pen, whatever hate someone or others that do not believe the exact same thing as you do? And be so damn self rightious about it, too? Like because they manage to get up on Sunday mornings and haul their sorry asses (and their ugly husbands and kids asses as well) to a church they think they are right and good, and everyone else is wrong and bad? How sick is that? I would say I hate them, but I dont. I hate what they do. Like my ex-wife. I loved her, still do. But she played the dog, and instead of taking care of her own family, her son, she ran off to fine true "love"(she failed, by the way). I wouldnt have her back if she begged me on her knees. But I dont hate her, I feel sorry for her...I guess thats how I feel for these poor haters. Very sorry for them.

Crazy people with weapons of mass destruction

No, I am not talking about the Iranians. I am referring to the latest loonie who was able to walk into a local guns-r-us and purchase a couple of lethal "cop killer" automatic weapons; in this particular case, an army major whose life didnt quite suit him, so he decided to take out some fellow soldiers. Americans still dont get it. I am not trying to draw attention away from the victims or this tragedy, but it is the same story all over again, just different circumstances, places, and victims. How many people have to die because of our obsession with guns? How many people must have their lives cut short before we realize that sensible gun control is in order? My guess is that it will never happen. You see, the founding fathers wrote the second amendment and it has to be followed, as if it were one of the commandments, written by Moses, or one of the diciples of Jesus. Never mind it was a differnt world, with far different realities. I doubt that our founding fathers had these weapons with such power be available to anyone who wished it. But, our precious rights must be protected. Thank God.

Sameness.

Nothing really changes except my shirt. Is it fate that I can never seem to get anywhere, no matter how hard I try.

Mistakes...

I have made many, many....some I take full credit for, many I share with mom and pop. Yesterday I had a conversation with someone and I was forced to own up to some of the worst things, something I would rather not do...I dont believe in going backwards when I have made such great efforts to forge ahead. But one cannot escape one's past deeds, like a having a really bad haircut on picture taking day. Just so many things I have regrets for; I wish I could articulate my feeling better to some of the folks I know here who like to drink/do drugs....just want to share with them the destructive effects of the party. It would be something I would like to do, help people avoid the kind of things I went through, just to get that nice secure feeling. Unwinding, as I justified it in my head. I know of others who just hang on killing themselves slowly, drinking away their lives. I hope and pray it will not be my fate, I love my wife, my life and my sanity. I hope you all love yourselves and your family enough to know when to stop before its too late. PEACE

Hello....

See me....hear me....touch me....feel me... one of the greatest songs ever written by one of my favorite rock bands of all time...The Who. Thats all I have right now...just my thinking about this group and this song in my head. Have a good day, all PEACE!!!

Back and evil as ever.

I deleted this blog a while back, for no real good reason other than my own paranoid ways....I think. So, today is the 2nd of July, anothe beautiful hot humid day, perhaps tomorrow I will go to the swimmbad and work on my tan....nice, I dont get to the pool as much as I would like to, of course my wife does not like to go much, she thinks she is "fat". No matter what I tell her, she has her mind made up...hating that. What do you do in the case like that? I try and tell her she is not (she just needs to re-arrange what she has, at best-but I dont dare say that), but see, its not something that would stop me from doing what I like to do. I mean, we are at an age where that sort of thing doesnt matter anymore, anyway...at least not to me. I look like crap, but then again I alwasy did. Not real fat, not real thin, just medium, and once you are in the water, its like who cares? But, women are a different species. Well, I will keep trying, I hate to go alone, but I might just have to...have a good 4th ALL!!!

monday monday

Cant trust that day....great song, but I dont think the monday they are singing about are the same as mine, I can trust mine to suck and be boring. Today is not any different, I am full of energy and hope, but the folks and situation around me are not being cooperative. So, another week of dread, doom, boredom. oopps I was wrong, now they want me to do something....oh well, my head isnt into this shit, I have class starting this week...back to school, like Rodney Dangerfield, that was my favorites of his. I am showing my age again....well, this going back to school thing might make feel young again, or at least keep me busy, just as long as it doesnt cut into my gym time too much...I would hate to have to do the Denise Austin morning work out to keep me flexible. If I could buy one of those cross-trainers, that would be cool. But the cost is the major issue on that item, plus I do get pleasure out of a workout with people around, plus a sauna afterwards. All thats not going to happen at our house anytime soon. We'll see later. Hope you alls Monday is going well.

Back to school

Time for me to try and go back to school. On line courses thru University of Phoenix. I was joking with someone that the last time I took a college course Carter was in office....I was wrong, actually it was Reagan, but close enough. I have always been smart enough for school, and am a fast learner, just not really all that interested. Lazy. This ia going to cut into my gym time, I just know it. But, I think its high time I tried something different. We shall see how these classes work out. Which reminds me I gotta write to my connection....gotta run.

thoughts on Elvis

Today is Elvis' birthday. Not that I knew this before, they just mentioned it on cnn. When I was a kid growing up I never thought much of him or his songs. Most guys didnt. We were too into the hard rock culture: Led Zeppelin, Lynard Skynard, the Stones, getting stoned, and so on. I mean, the guy did Vegas, which was like a sellout, going into retirement, if you will. But as I have grown older and read about life, his music, the kind of person he was I gained a greater respect for him...even his movies, none of which were all that great. But, he was an American icon, hero even...especially here in the town I live in Grafenwoehr, Germany where he spent some of his time in the army in the late 50's. They have a museum here with many pictures of him training with other troops. In many ways he symbolizes the best of America: a healing force after the war that helped rebuild germany and protect europe from the Russians and communism. Not just that, though, he represented America. And in a good way. He was the Sanatra or Crosby of his time, yet he ushered in a movement: Rock & Roll. With style. I hate what Vegas did to him, what that life did to him. Its not that big of a deal, but I just thought about that today. That and this weekend, taking care of myself, my baby and the dog. I guess thats the theme for this today: take care of yourself, no one else can but YOU, really.

Tuesdays

I have always loved Tuesdays, I dont know why, really....maybe just the name I like. TWOS-day. A new year and the promise to be a better person, I look forward to whats comming and have hope. I think I was in a rut, hating life, hating my job, hating some of the same down-in-the-mouth people I have to deal with on a daily basis. But today I can ignore them, just stay away from the depressing folks and be by "up" people. And there are people I can help, so I will, giving of ones self is good for the soul. And a daily work-out at the gym helps, too. Got one of those planned for later on today. I advise you to go out and work up a sweat, or do something outdoors today, it will make you fell 1000 per cent better, get the blood pumping to the brain, all that. I have some rocking up music on my ipod, too, that helps a lot. Ya know who I like? Denise Austin...she is on here at like, 5:30 a.m., pumping and shouting words of encouragement. I like here, I used to know someone like her, worked out doing palaties with her and others in our little community, it brings people together in a good way. It says,"hey, I may not be perfect, but I am working on it, and I am hanging with people like me". I loved it. I havent done that lately, just gone to the gym by myself, but see a lot of friends there and say hello. Went cross country skiing, too which was wonderful. I hope this "high" lasts for a long time, I was feeling depressed for a time there, very down in the mouth.